It's just a bottle of advil.

These are, or were, my favorite glasses. I feel like I can never find light-colored glasses and these were just so nice.

They were on the floor and because I'm basically blind and because they're lightly colored I didn't see them and I just stomped on them. The frames aren't sold anymore, I guess I just have to super glue it. It'll hopefully be okay. I'm just weirdly attached to these glasses.

I need to figure out what this cap is for. Honestly I probably could if I took two seconds.

Anyone who has thighs that touch know the pain that is thigh chafing. This is basically why I hate the summer. It sometimes feels impossible to wear shorts because I just can't stop worrying about my thighs. Maybe I wouldn't mind the summer so much if thigh chafing didn't make it so incredibly painful to walk. This helps, but it's not perfect like anything else. I mostly just wear long dresses and pants because sometimes I feel like I really can't wear shorts.

This is probably the biggest motivation I have for losing weight, so that I'm not in physical pain during warmer weather.

I could not tell you why I have this. I think it's my friend's dog's collar? Not sure why I have it though.

I don't know, it's just some random eyeshadows. I can't even apply them but I like playing with them.

I love this thing but I realized I mostly wear it when I want to look pretty or feel insecure. Like it's really light and fool-proof to apply and makes my skin looked airbrushed-ish and I like it? It also has sunscreen and I literally burn during the winter while indoors.

I honestly can't remember the last time I used this. Maybe when I went to the street over a year ago? I don't know why I brought it with me, I'm not going anywhere.

It's a condom. I really don't know why I have this. Probably something I packed away last year and just now have? It's not like I'll be able to use it anytime soon. My boyfriend is in the city.

I got vaccinated recently-ish because I'm fat. If I'm going to be fat I might as well get something good out of it.

I've had this thing since I was seventeen. I've filled maybe 3 diaries? I wish I were better at filling out this one. I have a lot of entries about getting into college and being so excited and about meeting my boyfriend for the first time and it's all really happy. It's kind of nice to relive all of those feelings sometimes because I haven't really been excited by anything in a long time. But I've been content and I'm okay with that.

My biggest regret is not writing in it during the pandemic.

I... don't know why this is floating around. I need to throw this away.

I originally got this as a notebook for my classes Spring 2020. Didn't really need a notebook once I got home so I started logging what I ate in it because my doctors asked me to. It was useful when I was in a good mindset. But it's hard to consistenly be in a good mindset especially with my insecurities so I needed to stop for a bit. I need to learn how to meditate on what I've eaten without focusing on calories. I figured it out recently, but I don't want to log anything right now while a write my thesis because I need to cut myself some slack.

The prescription for these is half of what I need. I'm about -2.50? These are -1.25 so they're not very useful. I really need to update these. They're just so boring.

My dad gave this to me. Apparently it's a friend's brand? I don't know, I thought that was cool so I took it. It's fun to play with, but I can't remember the last time I wore eyeshadow in public.

I got this Fall 2019 when I was too scared to leave my room. I don't mean this figuratively. I had so much anxiety surrounding food and eating clubs.

I'm in Tower, but I also have immense social anxiety so maybe joining this club was not the smartest decision. I just wanted to eat with my friends. It got to the point where I wouldn't get food because I was too afraid to eat in public. The anxiety was really bad so I got prescribed this.

I wish that food and social groups were not so closely linked. I wish I could just get food by myself and not even think about it. Quarantine was probably one of the best things to happen to me for my anxiety.

This is just a collection of stuff. I like to play with them sometimes, especially when I'm procrastinating. Honestly sometimes I think I wear more makeup now than pre-covid because it's now just for... me? I don't know how to explain.

This is how I oragnize my meds. I take too many per day for me to actually remember. This helps a lot. I have one med that I have to take 30 mins before eating and another I have to take while eating. Two I have to take in the morning, two on a as-needed basis. Then there's a stabby one, but that's not in here. I'm a big proponent of meds but my mom recenetly has been trying to get me on less. I've told her that I don't like being on meds but that most of these are incredibly helpful and I need them right now. Trying to eliminate them is not the goal, trying to be healthier is.

I need to toss my med bottles more often but most of these are good. An anti-depressant here, a thyroid med there, just some fun meducation.

This is just nailpolish and stuff. I used to be obsessed when I was a kid. I collected nailpolish. Now this is kind of the extent of it.

I'm sure you all know what this is.

I was told by my therapist that a lot of golfers take this med. I don't think I've ever actually taken it (don't worry, it's a take as needed type of deal). It makes you stop shaking apparently? My other meds make me shake though so it seems kind of dumb to take another med to counteract the first ones.

I burned myself accidentally on a kettle in October. I'm supposed to use this to get rid of it, but I keep forgetting. To be honest I don't really mind scars? But it looks a little too similar to some of the much older more... purposeful ones I have so I probably should. If it means anything I haven't done anything to hurt myself since 2016.

I'm borrowing these from my mom. I lose sunglasses too often for both her and me to justify buying me another pair.

Want to know what hurts your neck? Staring at a computer in bed. Also my monitor hurts my neck a little bit. My thesis is breaking me.